so its 31st, 2011. last day of this year!
i wanted to be enthusiastic and sound all positive, but i thought hek with it. this month i kinda gave up on my strength, and liking it this way, empty and lonely. who says one need to be always positive. i don't want to lie with my feelings!
i was supposed to take a take-home exam today, which i am putting off from last week. and its due day after tomorrow. i guess i will never learn to do things before time, its always gotta be last minute.
other than being lazy about the test i had a pretty organized day.
i cleaned my apartment, my roommate isn't coming back from break until jan 17th(till then its heaven, well she isnt that bad either, just a bit weird, asks lotsa ques, and god! mood swings, other then that she is quiet and sometimes its nice having a cup of coffee with her once in a while). i watered my herbs, cooked chicken and some steamed rice. had lunch in my sunny warm dining room.
though i kept feeling that emptiness... all day. i kept missing this person that i wasnt supposed too :(
on a different note, parents are dealing with their own drama's, and they barely call me. i feel so empty inside!!!
as of right now, its 9 pm, and all my friends went out to celeb 31st with their boy friend, husband or dates. i wanted to tell myself it doesnt matter, i am gonna have a great time. so i made myself dinner. originally the plan was to make Pitta bread pizza with mozzarella(i was craving for something fattening :( ). but pita bread i had, expired when i checked, so i used regular uncooked tortilla.

- u should use pizza sauce, as i was too lazy too make some i did use some store bought spaghetti sauce.
- i grated some mozzarella, also sprinkled some romano cheese.
- also used some cut up beef hotdog(cooked/warmed up. use whatever meat you have available like chicken or pepperoni, hotdog is all i had today). don't if you don't want to.
- i used some green olive(they were actually quiet salty, next time i know not to buy the same brand)
- used fresh basil from my basil plant.
- some garlic powder. also added some cilantro, parsley and dried oregano. too bad i didn't have tomatos either.
then on a pan i let the pizza cooked on low flame until the cheese melted. it was kinda crispier then i liked it to be, as tortillas are quiet thin, so cooked very fast. but let me tell you, it was yumm. for a college student with low budget, its a pretty good homemade dinner for a lazy evening(for me its a lazy 31st night).

and i finished my dinner with a cup of warm black tea, with some mixed in half n half and a bit of sugar.

hey, who ever you are, reading my silly blog, i hope you have a great great new year with your close ones. stay safe and sweet [: